so what IS new?

Wow, I really haven’t written anything (to you guys) in almost two weeks! Not that my mind has been vacant or that my life has been stagnant (stagnant, what’s that?), it’s just that I had TOO much on my mind and TOO much life to manage. I’m sure you’ve all been here, and revisit this busy place every now and again.

And I’ve just figured it out… I know what I want to do different this year and from this point forward: I want to slow down. Yes, all this speediness and deadlines and squeezing another client in and another run and another lesson, why? All this cursing drivers loudly while driving because I have a definite destination that I must reach in the most efficient way possible while all others just seem to be in my way… why? The destination will be there 3 minutes later, a client will come back to work whenever I am available and the other drivers cannot hear me, nor will they become faster, and more efficient, just the way I want them to be for my sake.

I will slow down and take out my guitar for a little practice, I will slow down and miss running days if I am too tired, and I will slow down and actually listen to what my husband is saying while I am doing three other things and only hearing his voice. I will call my brothers more often and I will skip study days if I think I can ‘wing it’ and be OK with an A-. OK, maybe a B. I will take time. I will listen, really listen. I will help, instead of expecting things to go my way and everyone to get out of my way. I will read more and take care of my home, my family and myself, my body and my soul. I will go to the theater and watch new foreign movies. I will savor what taking time tastes like.
Because I know, somewhere, in the back of my head, there are distant memories of slow kisses and melting chocolate, easy weekend runs and quiet swoops in the swing in the warm sunlight breaking through the trees… and you know what, isn’t that what life is all about? I think it is. I think it is.