christmas

Well, another has come and gone...
this year it was special...
no snow, no tree, no family around me, BUT! I had a wonderful Christmas experience.
I had clients who had shown extreme generosity and (I'd like to think) expressed their deep appreciation of me which made me feel on top of the world. I also had the opportunity to bring a little smile to the people I care most about. In addition, Shasta had passed her blood test with flying colors and got excellent report about her health and organ functions. Plus, I again reconnected with friends whom I had long lost and whom I cherish still today. This all came after my semester closing of four A's, which put me on the honor's list at FAU. Whoohoooooo!
I feel great and love my life today. I look forward to the sunrise tomorrow and running into the sunset in the evening. In between, I will soak up my puppy's undying love and affection and the fulfillment of my "work".
I tell you, this IS my bucket list. I am living it, every day. For if I die tomorrow, I will not think of why I haven't learned to fly a helicopter or had gone hang gliding, but I will think of the many sunsets over the water and the slow walks with Shasta, my clients beaming face in exhaustion, my medals hanging on the wall, the feel of a hot shower after a bone breaking long run, and the taste of a good wine (Barefoot Shiraz, $5.99 at Publix) on my cushy red couch. I will not think of places I haven't seen and books I haven't read, love I didn't make and children I didn't raise. I will think of the many special people in my life, my triumphs and my contributions, and who I am as a whole, good and bad, strong and beautiful. This is my bucket list...
But, I am not ready to check out, because my personality dictates that I will look for improvements and challenges to come. This is my strenght and my downfall. This makes me better with age, but restless in everyday life. I cannot keep an intimate relationship because I dread the usual and will always look for something better. I am stuck in eternal dissatisfaction IF I stick with a mate. So there. My bucket list ends with someone as unsettled as I. someone I can love for his craziness and personal quest to find balance that doesn't exist. Hm.. can't win every battle, but I will love the fight and embrace the war.

Peace to all, and love who you are (no matter what your psychiatrist tells you...)

What? Did I title this Christmas? Oh well...Christ is in here somewhere...

news stuff

Well, I actually had a quiet period when I didn't have to vent about anything or anyone... But just check the news now... mother murders adorable angleface girl, because she was hindering her social life. Selfish little b... make her volunteer for the rest of life, cleaning up kennels at the pet adoption center.
Then there is doubleyou. George, that is... with shoes flying at him... and stand up Americans saying how disrespectful it was for that Iraqi to throw them. Well, my friends, here is a slice of reality from an eye witness: we have destroyed that country... The town where I used to be stationed and was pretty big and lively with its markets and universities exists no more. Children are running around in the rubbles shoeless, begging for food (the ones that are not trying to throw handgranades inside the Humvees). School?? What's that? How can they even think about that? Half of them are bombed out anyway. So life, as it used to be, has changed dramatically. But we don't' know that because it's not on the news. We don't have to live in bombed out buildings in the cold and dark (they have to ration power too), fighting for food. So a shoe in the face from a frustrated father is quite appropriate.. I think I would've thrown at least a rotten egg at the greedy idiot. That's just my opinion...

And for the financial meltdown of another greedy bastard: cliches say it all sometimes: if it's too good to be true, chances are, it is not true. So 'don't put your eggs in one basket', but that doesn't excuse the behavior of one selfish ass who gambled away people's hard work (and inheritance). No fix here...

By the way, watch out for the latest trick in stores! accidentally leaving bags full of merchandise at the register!!! Since I usually multitask and try to stay distracted so I don't start hating the people in the stores acting rude and inconsiderate, I sometimes don't pay attention (imagine that..) to what I am walking out with. It happened to me twice in one day. The clerk just doesn't hand me my stuff and I have to go back to pick up what I had already paid for. Make sure to check and have everything becasue if one out of every ten people doesn't care about a lost grocery or shopping bag or is not able to travel back, they have made some extra bux with your money. And it's annoying to have to drive back... I did it three times last week... I am going to fix this.

and, Christians everywhere: we cannot take Christ out of Christmas because it's spelled like that so chillllllll!!!!!